silent tears

So what if today we are far apart
U still reside in the hidden corner of my heart
So what if u don’t treat me as a friend any more?
I am learning to smile again; I will be successful for sure,
Whenever I miss u, I just get lost in memories of olden days
I still remember those lovely days, when in ur arms I use to lay

So easily u moved on n now u treat me as stranger
Still i tried to help u out but then u took me as a challenger
Sometimes I feel so hurt that I lock myself in room n loudly I shout
Its u who was wrong, its u who lied, n then its u who have doubts?
My poems were never to blame u, they were just my feeling’s portray
Its u who played with my feeling, then why cant I call ur fake love a betray?

Sometimes I curse my fate, because I met u, because I loved u
My feelings were true, tell me, that’s why am i in blues?
Today, i try to run away from this feeling called love.
Because a heartless person came in my life n acted like a dove,

But the bitter truth is, I am still in love with you
I still wish to spend some moments even if they r few
I cry a lot then try to find u in my tears………….
That crying never gave me pain but brought both of us near
Perhaps unconsciously I am trying to dream of that time
When world will be beautiful, I will be yours n u will be mine
You will be mine……………
You will be mine…………….
You will be mine……………
You will be mine…………….

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To My Dear and Loving Husband

To My Dear and Loving Husband
by Anne Bradstreet

If ever two were one, then surely we.
If ever man were lov'd by wife, then thee.
If ever wife was happy in man,
Compare with me, ye women, if you can..

I prize thy love more than whole mines of gold,
Or all the riches that the East doth hold.
My love is such that rivers cannot quench,
Nor ought but love from thee give recompence..

Thy love is such I can no way repay;
The heavens reward thee manifold I pray.
Then while we live, in love let's so perservere,
That when we live no more, we may live ever.

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This poem is dedicated to my LOVE

"Yesterday when i was lonely sitting writing some notes,
i felt a breeze passing through the net of my hairs,
i felt as if it whishpered something in my ears,
which i cudnt recall although i tried alot....
i closed my eyz for a min,
i saw a picture of a face in my eyes,
in search for that i opened my eyes,
but i was unable to see anyone arround

in the garden while moving through soft grasses,
i felt as if someone i smoving my side,
touching my shoulders,holding my hands,
but when i wanted to find:who was it
i wa sunable to find him.

yesterday when i was lonely sitting.
a breeze moved trough my ears
shaking my ear rings....
which madea sweet soft note of love,
i felt as if u have shaken my ear rings,
as it was moving with so much pleasure,
kissing my cheeks,


then when i stopped writing...
i understood itz my dream,
thats want to hold ur picture
itz my imagination,
thats want to imagine u and only u
itz my feelings,
thats want to feel ur touch.......

This Poem is dedicated to .....My Sayang


You remind me of a flower,
Pretty, inside and outside.
A reason why people smile everyday,
A gift to all.



You remind me of chocolate,
Luscious and sweet.
Someone people can turn to in crisis,
Loved by all.



You remind me of a teddy,
Cute and huggable.
Someone people feel comfortable with,
Special to all.



You remind me of a balloon,
Happy and bouncy.
Someone people can have fun with,
Enjoyed by all.



You remind me of a lot of things,
But nothing can compare to the real person,
A friend I can look up to,
Cherished by me.



Say....this is for u ....

Why Are You So Special To Me...



Because you sense the feelings
behind the words.



Because you always see something
positive in me.



Because you are never fake but are always
honest with me.



Because you are a rare combination
of strength and sensitiveity.



Because you are not afraid to step out
into the unknown.



And most of all because I have the privilege
of calling you friend.



one last painful hug goodbye
one last passionate kiss and tear stained eyes
you turned and walked away
but your memories were here to stay

your face tattooed to my mind
your love i can no longer find
your words repeat in my head
your the reason for all my tears shed

my souls now hollow
my minds lost in all of its sorrow
I'm now haunted by your ghost
you were what i needed most

the memories of that one last painful night
when i lost this fight
i was blinded by your lies
you told me this love would never die

you held me close
you told me i was the one you wanted most
you said you'd never let these feelings die
every thing you said was just a lie

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Against my Feelings

A rush of emotions went down her throat,

She couldn’t understand why they wanted to float…

They asked her to release them, to breathe life outside her,

She laughed and said it was but just a moment of spur.

She took them out, showed them around…

And as quietly as she shut them back in her world,

They screamed, they cried, and they hurled.

They said they would rebound,

That a way should be found,

To lure her, to cure her,

To have her live her life w/o any err.

And she took her chances, and she played the game,

She went in and in came the rising flame.

Sudden urge of holding him tight,

Sudden urge of doing everything right,

Wishing he understood, wishing he cared

She stood for while until he disappeared…

With a heavy heart and sadness,

She decides to be free and let go of the madness.

It’s best to not feel (she felt)

And this way she refused to deal.

A heart already had a stain

Who refused to live any other pain.

She got back living in the inner apartment of her heart,

Closed and shut from the start…

They would rise again, she knew,

How she would fight them, she didn’t have a clue.

She now waits, watches her door,

Next time they come, she'd know: if to let them win or keep them ashore.

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The destiny is far away

Where dreams cannot sway,

Desires wait long under the shades of tree

Spell comes and goes

Taking away the sun which had once shone,

Compassion is all I get,

Engulfed in pain,

I pass through a gloomy lane,

No one can see the storm in my pacific heart,

Each moment it melts,

Each moment it dies,

When it sees two hearts happily in paradise,

You’re becoming an illusion now,

For I am like a fading star,

Shining from a sky-made just a little bit too far.

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Deep in the darkness of this void I stand,

Waiting, waiting for something that never comes,

I may get engulfed in it,

I may get buried,

For here I was left,

Somewhere in the middle of somewhere,

Dark night, broken lamps, empty roads,

Calling me from here is my own voice, is my own soul,

I look back; I see a shadow,

I look ahead, I see my pain,

Screams of silence follow me around,

I tried to run away,

It followed me everywhere.

Tears trickle down w/o a cause,

Life now seems to have come to a pause,

But I stay silent, waiting…

I stay without words, waiting…

I stay in outside peace with a churl of un-understood emotions inside me...waiting...

It's a conflict of mind. It's a conflict of heart. It's a conflict of my soul.

But I wait; wait for something, something to give me hope.

And so I wait with my hope dangling on a rope.

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You left me with a voice that is like an empty bed beside you all night long,

Like an empty house when you open the door.
Like the trees in autumn with no leaves.
The sound of my love that will always come to you and whisper
Like the birds flying south and crying.

Like the November wind and the sea on the hard core shore.

I am a sound that is so alone that no one can miss it,

that whoever hears it will weep in their souls and hearts will seem warmer.
I'm a sound that whoever hears it will know the sadness of eternity and briefness of life.


I'm a place where you bury yourself in sleep and memories of a world where there were thousands like you but you're alone, all alone in a world not made for you, a world where you need to hide.


I saw it all, I knew it all.
That was my mistake.
For years waiting for someone to come back who never came back.
The years of isolation in the insanity of time were darker than hell.


That's life! Someone always waiting for someone who never comes home.
Always someone loving something more than that thing loves them.
And after a while you want to destroy whatever that thing is or its memories so that it doesn't hurt you anymore.
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Both of us are crying,
May be I am lying,
But still my heart is sighing.


Why did you and I meet?
We both should have stopped this plan of deceit.
What phase was I going through,
To play a game that wasn't true.
I was a loser, I had to lose,
Unlike before, I had to choose.
Your happiness today or your happiness tomorrow.
For both, I got a tinge of sorrow.
Your tomorrow would be better than now,
Don't make me cry, don't ask me how.


This was my chosen fate,
This is where i cannot be late.
I know I have been mean,
But with me, you'll only see a gloomy scene.


Our journey is ending,
No, I am not pretending.
Don't ask me why,
But now is the time I have got to say goodbye.

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